Ever Clear Thoughts

It’s been cloudy all day but now the sun is shining. 

I hate this feeling inside though. I like to think I’ve gotten a pretty good grip over my emotions and not having a crazy outburst, but I know for sure that this is one that always throws me off. Why? And that’s why I try to avoid these situations but I guess this is probably the most proactive I’ve been about anything like this without completely being stupid.  

Also I want to work on more dancing, but my stupid injury from a couple weeks back is still preventing me from going full out one hundred percent.

Heal already…

I started to think about how much I care about my own self.  

Maybe I’m pretty selfish at times, but I’m starting to see more and more critical events happening in my life just pass me by, and I don’t seem to care very much. Perhaps it’s because I’ve been let down a lot by people or even myself that I don’t really care anymore.

The weird thing is I still care what happens to other people, even if I’m not close with them. Is it weird to not want people to go through the same shit I feel like I deal with even if I let myself get swallowed by the despair?

And we’re all just living our own worlds with our own troubles and priorities. But it’s amazing how surprisingly similar people can be.  Wanting the best for those around them, wanting a taste of a simpler life, just wanting to be included and admiring others from afar.  

And that will be my goal for the rest of this year and next. 

Sometimes I wonder if the two of you keep posting about each other.  

I find it quite amusing, to assume that you two are doing just that. 

Back and forth, without even knowing. Or maybe you do know, which is interesting as well.

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In other news, the two fingers still look like fat sausages. Hope I’m better by Friday.

Everyone seems a little bit more active on Tumblr again…

Which is good, I’ve been looking for things to read as I procrastinate.

Week 4, still nothing for the summer.

Week 4, half a choreo done…

This collaboration makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside, but I may be getting too caught up in things and looking too deeply into the whole situation. Someone, keep my hopes from getting too high…